I gotta tell ya

i've been with this guy for a while now. the x doesn't know. it started out as an affair. he was a mutual friend of the x and i. we've managed to keep it secret from him for quite sometime now. he would like to remain friends with the x, but the x is really not that great of a friend - contrary to what the x's little mind thinks of himself. there are many things the x thinks about himself that are painfully misguided - but that's an entirely different blog all together! this guy is 6 different ways of awesome! not that the x didn't have his awesome moments from time to time, but the x never produced much of anything with his awesomeness. the ex is talented, but his no idea at all how to harness that talent to get what he wants. this guy does! i think i would be a good example of that. he wanted me. he got me, whether he expected to, really wanted to, or not. he got me and i held on. never EVER have i found myself so satisfied with a partner and lover. the x was a horrible lover. no stamina. infrequent as all hell - which is what really drove me into the arms of another. the feeling that i was sexy, attractive, and not frigid and broken, unable to be satisfied because of MY issues. this guy can go for hours. and then go for hours again. several times a day. everyday of the week if we wanted to. i think there has been one or two times that we have gone 5-7 days in a row! it's quite astonishing - at our age - to have such a sex drive. i hear it's normal for women at my age to be at their peak - but men? don't they peak at 20 or something like that? he's strong. he carries me through the house. he's confident. he's a man. the x was a boy. is a boy - a 44 year old boy.

oddly enough, their birthdays are