Word

I saw this on another blog - in an effort to get back into blogging more frequently. The other blog was trying to come up with a word for the year, and then try to project what the word would be for next year. i'm going to modify that in my own effort to get back into blogging.
RANDOM:
in less than 30 days i have had 3 different people approach me from my past with new employment opportunities. each contact was a welcomed and much needed boost to my professional self esteem. i feel these communications were "random" for several reasons. 1) i had only just decided that it was time for me to start to think about possibly looking for a different job. now, i feel like i have been searching for the different, better, or perfect job almost all my life. i was only satisfied with the best job i ever had in hindsight and in every effort to not regret my decision to leave that perfect job (especially considering the final outcome of the company overall: closure) i have been struggling to find another job that would satisfy my soul the same way, or come to terms with the possible fact that my soul would never be satisfied the same way ever again. i'm still somewhere in between. 2) there are A LOT of people out of work - actively and aggressively looking. 3) any and every time i have ever decided to "look" for a better job, it doesn't happen. the new job is never better, i don't think it has ever been something i WANTED or HAD to have and has always ended bitterly at best. the only jobs i've ever gotten that i WANT WANTED i basically stumbled across. only one job i actively and aggressively pursued and got. (that was one that ended bitterly)
in these 3 cases - they have essentially come out of nowhere, 2 or the 3 from contacts from the job previously referenced that was the best job i ever had, and the other came from the first REAL job that started me on the path to the best job i ever had.
the 1st was really just sweet. i former coworker contacted me thinking i would be great at an office that was opening with her company here in LA. knowing the kind of work ethic i have and that we all shared when we worked together for the same company in the same department, she thought of me. it was good to hear from her, to catch up and reminisce and talk about the quality of work we perform given any task. the role had already been given to someone else, but that's ok. because....
the 2nd came from someone i haven't worked with in over 2w-something years (we'll mumble over exactly how long) he called me to tell me about a position posted with his company that he thought i would be perfect for. he being the national director and final approval for the hire, though not the direct report, but the big boss to my direct report. he basically called me to give me the inside word and line to the hiring manager. i have spoken with her a total of 4 times in depth about the position and we have pretty much come to the conclusion that i am the best candidate for the job. we are now in a holding pattern until their HR department decides to make the final move and approve the hire. i don't know how many other candidates are solid. but considering this is a publicly traded company, they are a slow moving beast and no decision can be made at the drop of a hat. the job is huge. perhaps too big for just one person. there is a small voice that i silence in my head telling me it's a set up for failure. if i get the job, the first thing i will start to do is access the divide and work to define a secondary position.
the 3rd and most recent came to me yesterday via linked in. i don't know much about the role or the company except what i can find online through press releases that are over10 months old. and that the company itself is a spin off of the best job i ever had, run by a tool that is one of those people that no matter what, falls UP and gets people to throw money at his ideas. they think i might be over qualified for the job, but quite frankly, i am over-qualified for just about anything i could be offered. i told her as long as it had something to do with music, with people who are passionate and interested in music - i am perfectly qualified. we are meeting today. in a little over an hour.
so to me, this is random. it may be premature to say, but i almost feel like i have "options". something that i have never had before.

here's another clue:

if you can't manage traffic -then you are not a traffic manager.

here's a clue:

if you're still eating jack in the box, bagels, donuts, cookies and every other form of fatty unhealthy foods while working out...you won't loose weight.

am i missing something?

when bored at work (most of the time) i cruise blogs. i visit 1 or 2 somewhat slightly regularly, then i click the upper left corner for "next blog"
what's UP with the overabundance of crafty-knitty-quilty-scrapbooky blogs?!?! all seem to be run by midwest pastel housewives and/or retirees! weird. virtually every blog i click through is either a crafty blog or some blog about somebody's annoying little kid(s) - or WEDDING blogs! what the fuck?! where are all the subversive, thought provoking, compelling blogs? is there a blog roll for GOOD SHIT?
just curious.

shift in corporate structure

seems that statement has been the crux of my entire career at one point or another...many points actually.
after 20 years in the music business, numerous bankruptcies, acquisitions, buyouts, downsizes and restructures ,i found myself without a job and with very few options music-related to find work. through a good friend, i got a referral for a job and quickly found myself in the magazine publication/distribution business. somewhat slightly music related, in that i assist in the creation of a weekly sales flyer (that people around here seem to thing is Rolling Stone - which is quite funny to me...it's a SALES FLYER on glossy, overpriced color paper, but whatever, everyone has their own levels of self importance) i've gone from a nationally recognized product specialist, managing inventory across the country, multimillion dollar budgets, creative campaign design and execution, store planning and layout to a coordinator.
it was announced today that a portion of the company that i work for has been sold off. (a portion that i actually started my illustrious music career with, oddly enough) and it's fine, that's not the bother - i know the music business is a dying industry, sales and distribution are collapsing as every moment ticks by. i understand that. i am glad i am no longer a part of that. i guess what i find upsetting or distressing is that i had hope that there would still be room for me - somewhere. that i would be able to keep music around me and that i would be able to make a living off my knowledge and expertise. i guess the realization and acceptance is as slow and painful for me as the collapse of the industry itself. i'm sad today over what i was and apparently won't ever be again. getting over it in stages, i suppose. i'm just a coordinator now and no one knows or cares what experience i may have to offer. i find myself in a job and an industry that i have no particular interest in, and with creative types that are passionate about what they do, but i do not share in their passion. i desperately want to be closer to music again. i'm not sure how or where.

Hallowe'en on the brain(s)

funny thing dude said yesterday that he was in a Hallowe'en mood....feeling Hallowe'enie. noot sure if it was the slightly cooler weather over the past few days (from the previous week of upper 90s) or what - but he was having Hallowe'en thoughts. it's not like we haven't been talking about our costumes for the past 3 or 4 months or anything...sheesh.
then i log in to the face place and one of the things i am a fan of, er "like" we whatever you call it has something to do with spooky stuff in LA. i can across a new blog...The Spooky Vegan - and i decided to follow her! (hi Spooky Vegan) while not 100% vegan (don't have the time, patience or funding) i certainly eat mostly vegan. no meat, no cheese (reluctantly) no dairy, some eggs, sometimes tuna, rarely ever shrimp....but for the most part i live a pretty cruelty free life.
and Hallowe'en? well...i've won 3 costume contests....judged by the elite of the costume world - creature fx nerds - not to brag - but hallowe'en is a pretty BFD in my world. like i said, been talking about this years' costumes for about 4 months now. WAS gonna to that ^ but don't have the cash. so now we're trying to think of something else. i have no idea. i might have dude do me up all gross and dead-like. we'll see.
now i'm all Hallowe'enie, too!! i can't believe it's barely 2 months away!!
but i have a headache....
L8

30 things i like about myself

so i hear/read it's "like yourself week" and i also hear/read that one should blog about things that are difficult or hard to write about...so here we go:
what i like about myself
1. my big boobs, which for the most part, are remarkably firm for their size!
2. i'm not ashamed of sex (which you will read more about as we go on with this list) i like to experiment.
3. i give good, no GREAT blowjobs
4. i like that i can do almost whatever i want with my hair: straight, curly, up, down, knots. etc.
5. my passion and knowledge of music
6. my irrational, emotional response to animals...i LOVE that about myself
7. that i can live without eating meat
8.i am a great cook
9.my big brown eyes
10. my cuban background
(uh-oh, now it's getting difficult)
11. my strong work ethic
12.i have perfect feet (toes are in perfect order, not weird or crooked)
13. i like my smile
14. i like (almost) all my choices of tattoos
15.i have finally found a way to spin a positive response
16. but i also like my cynisism
17. i like my sarcastic sense of humor
18.i like that i can be a girlie girl at the same time as being one of the guys
19. i am not easily offended
(getting stuck again)
20.i am a great friend
21.my affinity for all things sparkly
(gah! 30? really?)
22. i am a very good judge of character
23.i am a good mother to my cats
24.i survived parochial school
25.i have experienced drugs and appreciate the experience(s)
26.i like that i was strong enough to move away from my hometown to a place where i hardly knew anyone
27.i was strong enough to get out of a bad relationship, even if it took 10 years
(almost there!)
28.i am a completely 100% devoted lover
29.i support the rights of GBLT's
and i wonder what more there might be....
30.i can admit when i am wrong

ok, so i guess that wasn't so bad. maybe since i'm doing this from work, i'm not putting TOO much into every word. an interesting exercise though. what 30 things do you like about YOU?