Word

I saw this on another blog - in an effort to get back into blogging more frequently. The other blog was trying to come up with a word for the year, and then try to project what the word would be for next year. i'm going to modify that in my own effort to get back into blogging.
RANDOM:
in less than 30 days i have had 3 different people approach me from my past with new employment opportunities. each contact was a welcomed and much needed boost to my professional self esteem. i feel these communications were "random" for several reasons. 1) i had only just decided that it was time for me to start to think about possibly looking for a different job. now, i feel like i have been searching for the different, better, or perfect job almost all my life. i was only satisfied with the best job i ever had in hindsight and in every effort to not regret my decision to leave that perfect job (especially considering the final outcome of the company overall: closure) i have been struggling to find another job that would satisfy my soul the same way, or come to terms with the possible fact that my soul would never be satisfied the same way ever again. i'm still somewhere in between. 2) there are A LOT of people out of work - actively and aggressively looking. 3) any and every time i have ever decided to "look" for a better job, it doesn't happen. the new job is never better, i don't think it has ever been something i WANTED or HAD to have and has always ended bitterly at best. the only jobs i've ever gotten that i WANT WANTED i basically stumbled across. only one job i actively and aggressively pursued and got. (that was one that ended bitterly)
in these 3 cases - they have essentially come out of nowhere, 2 or the 3 from contacts from the job previously referenced that was the best job i ever had, and the other came from the first REAL job that started me on the path to the best job i ever had.
the 1st was really just sweet. i former coworker contacted me thinking i would be great at an office that was opening with her company here in LA. knowing the kind of work ethic i have and that we all shared when we worked together for the same company in the same department, she thought of me. it was good to hear from her, to catch up and reminisce and talk about the quality of work we perform given any task. the role had already been given to someone else, but that's ok. because....
the 2nd came from someone i haven't worked with in over 2w-something years (we'll mumble over exactly how long) he called me to tell me about a position posted with his company that he thought i would be perfect for. he being the national director and final approval for the hire, though not the direct report, but the big boss to my direct report. he basically called me to give me the inside word and line to the hiring manager. i have spoken with her a total of 4 times in depth about the position and we have pretty much come to the conclusion that i am the best candidate for the job. we are now in a holding pattern until their HR department decides to make the final move and approve the hire. i don't know how many other candidates are solid. but considering this is a publicly traded company, they are a slow moving beast and no decision can be made at the drop of a hat. the job is huge. perhaps too big for just one person. there is a small voice that i silence in my head telling me it's a set up for failure. if i get the job, the first thing i will start to do is access the divide and work to define a secondary position.
the 3rd and most recent came to me yesterday via linked in. i don't know much about the role or the company except what i can find online through press releases that are over10 months old. and that the company itself is a spin off of the best job i ever had, run by a tool that is one of those people that no matter what, falls UP and gets people to throw money at his ideas. they think i might be over qualified for the job, but quite frankly, i am over-qualified for just about anything i could be offered. i told her as long as it had something to do with music, with people who are passionate and interested in music - i am perfectly qualified. we are meeting today. in a little over an hour.
so to me, this is random. it may be premature to say, but i almost feel like i have "options". something that i have never had before.