how do i hate thee?

let me count the ways!
i know it's negative, but that's what you get from me. i have murder and rage in my soul, in astonishing quantities.
someone came into my life a few years ago - un invited and un welcomed - assimilated themselves into many aspects and relationships and has left a path of destruction in her wake.
i, by nature, am standoffish, freakishly private and not at all warm and friendly and open upon first meeting someone. i must evaluate you first, before i let you in. once you are in, your are in good and it take a lot to get out. over the past year and a half, i have had to let people go in my life and because it's so hard for me to let someone in, it breaks my heart everyday to think of those i have lost.
upon evaluation, if you do not pass, you are not allowed in. period. you don't get to know me. you are not part of my life, or inner circle. we are merely acquiantances.
this does not mean that you cannot be part of the lives of those around me - you are just not MY friends.
so this person - discovered on myspace - the bain of all existence and one of the horses of the apocalypse, and signs of the end of society as we know it - mark my words - in a matter of months was EVERYWHERE. she was at parties, gatherings, shows, my house, friend's houses - everywhere all the time. depserately trying to keep everyone's attention and be everyone's friend.
i am also territorial.
you cannot have the same kind of relationship that i have with someone else. your relationship will not be closer or better than mine is with one person or another.
she did not pass my tests. i have a discerning eye and i know crazy. i don't know how i know - i just know. and i called crazy on this one. i said - watch out - she's crazy - she's gonna do something fucked up. i didn't want her around - i didn't want her to know anything about me - i wanted to keep my distance with her.
but she perservered.
she hung around like the stench of a dying body. she bought things, she went out of her way to spend money in an attempt to buy friendship. it made me uncomfortable. and at the risk of insult, i refused her efforts, and of course, did offend. it was never the same after that. in an attempt to "play nice" i tried to spend quality time - i found myself exhausted by her personality. so i distanced myself and allowed my relationship with her to ebb and flow, while she sunk her hooks deeper and deeper in to those around me.
i watched.
and there were times that we were friendly. shopping, lunch, and maybe once or twice, she was the sounding board for one of my many breakdowns during the very difficult time of my life, when my 10 year relationship was ending, my father died, my mother was disgnosed with cancer and i had a horrible job. but those were only brief moments that she was allowed into my life.
as our communications became further and further apart and my relationship with the dude - her primary object of affection grew stronger and stronger. her resentment for me grew. her madness grew. she knows she could never have him, but much like most women of her ilk, from childhood she learned to manipulate people into relationships. as mentioned before, she would buy you with favors and presents, all in the name of friendship. all lies. anything that she does for anyone only serves her. she wants the special relationship. she wants something with you that no one else has. she wants that private friendship that she feels she can control and have all to herself. "you don't know him/her the way i know him/her - our friendship is different"
she's narcissistic.
and now finally - the other crazy shoe has dropped. while i have watched her drop a whole closet full of crazy shoes on me, around me, on those i care about and love - this is the last drop.
her crazed desperation to keep someone who won't be kept in her life has driven that person so far from her life - she has no idea the damage she has caused to herself.
and i am satisfied. because again - I WIN!
you horrible, miserable little troll! you will always be tortured by the life you can never lead. your madness will be your end. wallow in it! you deserve everything - you dysfunctional, twisted creature!
legally we are doing the right thing and playing by the rules. she is not. but we do the right thing and again, in the long run - we will win. we now have to go through the motions. we watch. we wait. we win.