Day Two...no land in site

i love my new boyfriend. he's awesome. we've known each other for several years, he was a friend of my ex, who i was with for 10 years. the current, was a needed distraction and a catalyst for me to extricate myself from my predicament with the ex. he's strong and caring. he's self aware and self-sufficient. he's desperate to communicate with me - which is where our only problem lies. i have had a lifetime of not communicating. no one ever asked me how i was feeling or how any experience was effecting (affecting?) me, so i never said. i had a don;t ask don't tell policy for myself. in my experiences, i also found that when i did tell, or express myself or my feelings, i was riduculed, ignored, or dismissed. or the conversation escalated into an arguement, yelling screaming, name calling, etc. so that taught me that expressing myself was bad. i like to call it conditioning. the new dude does. a lot. he is so expressive and so into his emotions and feelings - it's funny - he almost makes me look like a dude sometimes!
and the sex is great.
REALLY GREAT!
sex with the ex - was not. ever. but that's a completely different blog.