trying to write each day isn't so easy. since no one really knows i have this blog i have to be discreet about writing. don't want the dude to wonder what i'm doing and have him think that i'm hiding something from him, y'know? i am hiding this blog, all things considered - but mainly because i have no confidence in my writing. i also don't necessarily like the arrogance that goes along with writing with the assumption that what i have is a) worthy of reading or b) quality. no punctuation. this is no exercise in writing skills, which perhaps it should be - then maybe i wouldn't feel so guilty or like i'm being so self indulgent.